The Wife by S.P. Cervantes

Author:S.P. Cervantes [Cervantes, S.P.]
Language: eng
Format: epub
Tags: Romance
Published: 2015-08-17T23:00:00+00:00

It was my wedding day, and I sat in a pile of clothes, wishing my mom was here to give me the advice I so desperately needed. There have been times in my life where I wished my mom was with me—graduation from high school and college, when I went shopping for my wedding dress—but today was a day that her absence was so devastating that it made it hard to breathe.

I couldn’t sleep last night. So many doubts and questions took over my thoughts; I wished my mom could tell me everything was going to be alright. I needed her to tell me that second thoughts before a wedding are normal. I’m too afraid to admit to anyone the doubts I’m having; those were things that a daughter can only confide in her mom with—at least that’s how I’m feeling right now. I’m so confused because I have no doubt I love Mike. I love him more than I’ve loved anyone since Jamie—but I also love him in a much different way. All I could think about last night as I tossed and turned in my childhood bed was wondering whether I’m settling. I’ve convinced myself that I’d never love anyone the way I loved Jamie because he was my first love—but now all I could wonder is whether I just settled for the first person who was able to make me love again.

The part that’s almost as frustrating as my mom’s absence is that none of these doubts were things I worried much about before last night. Sure, throughout my relationship, especially when Mike was dismissed from his fraternity, I had hesitations about him. It frustrated and confused me when he didn’t fight for his innocence. I appreciated his desire to protect his friends and take responsibility, but I didn’t understand why he would have chosen that direction if he were completely innocent. The one thing that’s always helped me through doubts was that Mike loved me for all of my good and bad. I never doubted that I could trust him with my heart.

I wasn’t sure why, but as I sat there in a pile of doubt, something made me reach under my bed and take out a box I haven’t looked at for years. It was a small, silver box that Jamie had kept his mother’s Claddagh ring in, and now I kept my last few mementos of Jamie locked away in it. I ran my fingers across the cool silver designs, wondering why I’ve kept this after Jamie cut me out of his life, but when I lifted the lid to see his mother’s ring in the deep green velvet, I knew why.

His mother’s ring.

Tears finally released from my eyes when I took the ring in my fingers. I wasn’t crying for Jamie; I was crying for his mom. Like my mom, she would never get the chance to see him get married or have kids of his own. I looked at the inscription on the inside of the golden ring—One love, everlasting.

Download

Copyright Disclaimer:
This site does not store any files on its server. We only index and link to content provided by other sites. Please contact the content providers to delete copyright contents if any and email us, we'll remove relevant links or contents immediately.